If I knew then.....

We've all heard the line, "If I knew then what I know now..." I assume every mother polled would start out a conversation just like this about raising children. I am so thankful that THIS year, I get to have my first Mother's Day as a mom (not just with a baby in my tummy like last year :) ).

Last year was a very scary Mother's Day. I had fallen down the stairs at work and began having contractions. There was a tear and some of Ady's blood cells and my blood cells had been mixed. After a very long day in the hospital, I was sent home on bed rest. I remember the fear and anxiety that went all over my mind. I was only 20 weeks along. The doctor had prepared us that if the contractions didn't stop, Ady wouldn't be able to be saved. She would've been way too early. Too early to even try. Praise God that she stayed put for.....17 more weeks! How blessed and thankful am I that she was kept completely safe in the arms of Jesus.

"I have held you in the palm of My hands."-Isaiah 51:16

I am "one of them" now. One of the worry wart moms, too overprotective, and filled with the line already, "If I knew then what I know now." Ah...I wish I had held on a little tighter when she was so little. Ady was so very tiny, and stayed that way for months. I'm glad she's growing and healthy now, but I do so much miss her being so tiny.


I wish I had really believed people when they told me that the nights of sleep would return. I miss them. I miss the nights holding and rocking her. They were so sweet and so tender.


I am so grateful for everyday that I have to spend on this Earth with my miracle. I am more aware every day of just how blessed Joseph and I are to have been able to conceive Ady. And the reality that there may never be another baby growing in my tummy can make me ache and cry. But, I am so thankful that I was able to experience this. My greatest desire has been granted and I have seen the healing hand of God!



I am so glad to have the most amazing mother who has been the greatest source of encouragement and inspiration I could've ever dreamed of having. She is the most beautiful woman in the world, and the most selfless. I don't believe I've ever seen her buy one thing for herself. She put fashion, wordly "goods" like new couches, home decor, etc, on the backburner-(where it belongs-by the way!), and spent her time, money, and resources on her children and teaching us the only thing that matters...Jesus. My hope and prayer is that I can be the kind of mother to Ady as she has been to me. She is a woman of her word and has been such a wonderful example of Christ love.

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there! :)